So, last night I was fortunate enough to be informed that I’m being talked about in my hometown. This high school hateration is coming from some girl I used to be friends with. Our mutual friend let me know (she’s garbage, I’m way better, that’s why he told me) that she’s been spewing garb about me and said, among many other things, that I “only care about myself.”
Now, normally I would not give a flying fuck what this insignificant little girl has to say about me, but I just don’t really understand the comment. Let’s look past the fact that homegirl who said this is straight up THE most self-involved person ON THE PLANET, and focus on me here (hey, I only care about myself right?).
I have always been a person who cares too much about helping out other people and not enough about helping myself. I genuinely invest more in creating happiness for others than I do in creating my own happiness. Obviously, this has been detrimental to me. I’m at a point in my life where I’m learning to let go of that and start looking out for number one because really, if I don’t, who else will? My family and friends know I care about them in a go-to-the-end-of-the-earth kind of way, and that will never change, but I am learning to care about myself in that way too.
I’ve been feeling pretty shitty today thinking that someone, even someone who does not matter to me in my life whatsoever, would think that I’m uncaring in such a huge way. But I’m starting to realize that there are always going to be people who don’t like they way you conduct yourself. There are always going to be haters. And having grown up in a town like Rumson, there’s just no possible way that you won’t be talked about. And if you’re a person from Rumson who generally doesn’t give a fuck about its people and its politics, you’re probably going to get talked about even more.
I’m going to continue on caring about myself, and she can continue on being a total fucking cunt. I’M JUSS DOIN ME, HOEZ.
